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Re: September Aethyrs
« Reply #15 on: September 12, 2019, 06:44:43 PM »
She doesn't have nearly as much control as I do, though her visions are significantly more intense.

And yeah, I've been told it may be some primal atavistic initiation thing, but honestly - I don't really think I have time to delve deep into that; one aethyr a day puts quite a strain on me right now.

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Re: September Aethyrs
« Reply #16 on: September 13, 2019, 06:20:35 PM »
How are you invoking the Governers, Surgo?

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Re: September Aethyrs
« Reply #17 on: September 13, 2019, 08:03:45 PM »
Straight - names and offices/ functions from here: https://hermetic.com/enochia/enochian_hierarchy, and then an impromptu oration relating to their function. More doesn't appear to be necessary. I have gotten indication that working with them should come later on, after I finish this 'first dip' into each Aethyr, in a longer, more involved working. Thus I haven't been actively invoking them over the last few. Sometimes they appear, sometimes not.

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Re: September Aethyrs
« Reply #18 on: September 14, 2019, 10:51:38 PM »
DES: https://z.lvxnox.com/z/magick/records/05-09-2019

VTI: https://z.lvxnox.com/z/magick/records/06-09-2019

NIA: https://z.lvxnox.com/z/magick/records/07-09-2019

(TOR and LIN aren't available - I used my phone to record, and transcription takes massive amounts of time in comparison with just typing up written notes)

ASP: https://z.lvxnox.com/z/magick/records/10-09-2019

CHR: https://z.lvxnox.com/z/magick/records/11-09-2019

POP: https://z.lvxnox.com/z/magick/records/12-09-2019

Some details may be redacted. This is largely to skip things which aren't directly relevant to the process, such as tasking angels to solve personal/ health matters, in the case of POP.

It's difficult for me to actually comment on all of this. My brain becomes more and more mushy with each aethyr, and while it's not exactly unpleasant, it does make it more and more difficult to think straight and actually process what's going on.

Almost feels like I'm just going through the motions.

I do have transcripts up to today (14th, TAN), but I'll try to type them up tomorrow. Brain is quite literally mush.

Thoughts so far?

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Re: September Aethyrs
« Reply #19 on: September 15, 2019, 01:06:23 AM »
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Brain is quite literally mush.
Dude, stop. Take some time to recover and integrate your experiences before you destroy your mind. Your personal power is going to run out quickly burning gas like this. Do you want to die before you make it across?

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Re: September Aethyrs
« Reply #20 on: September 15, 2019, 09:40:22 AM »
Nah, I'm good. I need to keep on going.

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Re: September Aethyrs
« Reply #21 on: September 15, 2019, 11:13:15 PM »
ZEN: https://z.lvxnox.com/z/magick/records/13-09-2019

TAN: https://z.lvxnox.com/z/magick/records/14-09-2019

LEA: https://z.lvxnox.com/z/magick/records/15-09-2019

OOF.

It's only getting stranger. Halfway through. Here's hoping my psyche doesn't break in the next two weeks.

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Re: September Aethyrs
« Reply #22 on: September 17, 2019, 12:49:21 AM »
OXO: https://z.lvxnox.com/z/magick/records/16-09-2019

Still shaking, almost 2 hours later. Trembling. Like I'm having a strong adrenaline rush that doesn't seem to end.

My mind's fairly stable, but my body's in panic mode. Not sure what to make of it.

I did have some little coffee through the day (I normally don't drink coffee at all), but this is beyond anything I've ever experienced on coffee.

Really not sure. Feeling 'stunned' mentally, too. Brain's calm, while body's tense and anxious.


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Re: September Aethyrs
« Reply #23 on: September 17, 2019, 01:20:59 AM »
Didn't expect Chumbley to come up, I guess it's so hip even the angels are into it.

What'd you mean by using + for truth? Qabalistic cross? Maybe consider hebrew gematria of Aaron.

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Re: September Aethyrs
« Reply #24 on: September 17, 2019, 02:28:52 AM »
Binding to the Black Cross, in the Names &c.

Aaron... funny shit there.

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Aaron

There's very strong parallels between this finding and my work with Nubti. Particularly these:

> he was chosen with Hur to support the hand of Moses that held the "rod of God".

This is reminiscent of the workings I did with Asemlen, where in vision he was appointed the rod of N., while I'm supposed to be the 'priest'.

But it goes further.

> The books of Exodus, Leviticus and Numbers maintain that Aaron received from God a monopoly over the priesthood for himself and his male descendants (Exodus 28:1). The family of Aaron had the exclusive right and responsibility to make offerings on the altar to Yahweh.

Historically, there was only allowed to be one single priest of Nubti.

What I am suspecting here, more and more, is that I am being pulled into the same thing, just within a different symbolic framework.

I'm highly uncertain that's the case, but the similarities just stand out to me to the point where I can't handwave the possibility away.

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Re: September Aethyrs
« Reply #25 on: September 17, 2019, 10:28:29 AM »
VTA: https://z.lvxnox.com/z/magick/records/17-09-2019

I went early today because I was in pain. No pain after this. At least, not yet - I feel something building up.

Redacted the last bit because it deals with private matters that I'd rather not go into, but an agreement was struck.

What makes me wonder is that my visions seem to be taking a very different direction from Crowley; they're becoming more and more personal, to the point where I am not quite sure where I am or what I'm doing.

They're also not at all as elaborate as Crowley's. He speaks of Madimi as the 'daughter of Babalon', etc. etc., and goes into incredible detail about the profoundness of this, whereas to me it just seems... normal. Business as usual.

Am I just far too jaded with the world to appreciate this, or is there something else at play? Perhaps I'm just bad at scrying, ha.

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Re: September Aethyrs
« Reply #26 on: September 19, 2019, 12:19:44 PM »
ZIM: https://z.lvxnox.com/z/magick/records/18-09-2019

LOE: https://z.lvxnox.com/z/magick/records/19-09-2019

It's getting weirder and weirder!

Since hitting ~ ZEN, I've had massive problems with motivation. It's like I'm only able to perform ritual, and speak about magic. Everything else has seemingly completely become uninteresting to me.

It's nearly impossible for me to do something as simple as getting off my ass and cooking; I worry that it may be obsessive, but as I've committed, I won't stop now.

ICH tomorrow. ZAX the following day.

Also time has become fucky. I did ZIM yesterday, but I keep on getting confused when "yesterday" was. Was it a week ago? Just a few days? Was it today, even?

It's like everything is becoming fluid and flexible.

Not even going to try comprehending it, until I'm done.

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Re: September Aethyrs
« Reply #27 on: September 20, 2019, 03:20:45 PM »
ICH: https://z.lvxnox.com/z/magick/records/20-09-2019

Pretty calm, all things considered.

Not sure what to expect in ZAX. Seeing that the aethyrs seem to adjust to me being rather inept all over, I don't expect to be massively overwhelmed.

This last one gave me some reassurance, in that anything bad that happens in ZAX or as a result of it, is self-inflicted. Haven't yet figured out precisely what this means intellectually, to explain. We'll see if I'm able to, tomorrow.


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Re: September Aethyrs
« Reply #28 on: September 21, 2019, 12:05:40 PM »
ZAX: https://z.lvxnox.com/z/magick/records/21-09-2019

Not sure if I should take this as a win or not. My experience, at least within 30 minutes of the work, has definitely changed a bit. I highly suspect it'll continue to change over the next week, maybe even months, to actually manifest the alignment.

It was strange. I don't feel like I gave in to anything weird, or that I failed, but I also feel like I didn't get the full experience. Not sure what to make of it.

There are some interesting elements which I missed during, but noticed while transcribing, but it doesn't seem prudent to comment on things so soon.

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Re: September Aethyrs
« Reply #29 on: September 21, 2019, 02:08:40 PM »
Update, about 2.5h later.

My senses seem sharper. Particularly vision. Everything seems 'connected together'. Motion is more fluid, as I perceive it. There's less and less separation between my environment and me. I can still tell where "I" stop (as in, the body), and retain the locus of perception. Heart rate seems to be quite high. Quick measurement gives 83 bpm. Normally it oscillates between 55 and 65. My lifestyle is rather sedentary.

Body is comfortable. Still can hear my heartbeat, which is unusual. Tinnitus is happening, too, which isn't great.

My thoughts are strange. Not 'disjointed', but less stable. Fleeting. I have to actively focus to follow any train of thought; they just come and go. I hope this is temporary. Similar with emotions; I feel them about at the level I did before, but I've noticed that I express them more. The latter has been escalating since I started with the aethyrs - it's been building up to the point where it appears my feelings and desires 'shine though', even if I don't feel them/ aren't aware of them.

There is a constant, mild pressure on my skull. I've had this experience before, but it never persisted out of vision; it's been almost 3 hours, and it's still going. Not sure what to make of it.

Either way. Not going to give any more thought to this until I'm able to think easily again. Or, express the right idea with regards to what is happening, seems to be the more accurate way of putting it.

I don't think I did it properly; there is an effect, but it feels more like just 'dipping my toes' than the full thing; at least comparing it to past reports of how this ought to work out. Or if I did it properly, it may just be a difference in how it manifests. Most people I've talked to appear to have a very strong mercurial tendency, whereas mine is martial - it shows rather clearly in the visions, simplistic and rough as they may be.

Anyhow. I'll be giving it a few days to see what happens. Can't say I'm 'freaked out', but it certainly appears that my body is. The effects described above are not dissimilar to an adrenaline rush, or stacking up on B-vitamins.

Stranger and stranger, curiouser and curiouser.