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Re: September Aethyrs
« Reply #30 on: September 21, 2019, 02:12:02 PM »
Also curious thing...

The ZAX vision link post thing is #333. How appropriate and curious.

https://osoaa.org/index.php/topic,54.msg333.html#msg333

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Re: September Aethyrs
« Reply #31 on: September 21, 2019, 05:59:59 PM »
Did you meet 333?

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Re: September Aethyrs
« Reply #32 on: September 21, 2019, 06:34:06 PM »
Not as such, no. There was a large disjointment all over, and then I invoked, killed everything and the mind, and was told to keep going.

Update 7 hours later: headache persists. Pressure on top of head is still there. I slept like a dead-man in the middle of the day, which is very unusual for me.

My body feels stiff, stiffer than normal. My heart-rate seems to have returned back to norm.

Closing my eyes leads to almost instant REM, which feels rather funny. Overall exhaustion.

Trying to raise energy, if only a little, helps, but it depletes almost instantly.

As I said before, it feels almost like I didn't do this properly. Like there's something large missing. But the effects (or at least some effects) are there.

I was quite surprised that Choronzon didn't manifest 'as' Choronzon. This whole idea of 'killing your twin', didn't really go as far as I wanted it to. The experience was certainly unusually intense, but also a letdown.

Really not sure what to make of it. Somewhat tempted to do another dip in a few hours into ZAX, but I'll stick to my schedule and continue on.

I'll have some time to go into ZAX after I'm finished scrying all of them.

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Re: September Aethyrs
« Reply #33 on: September 25, 2019, 12:01:43 AM »
Well. Short update. Did DEO.

I'll type the actual notes later on. Right now, just want to summarize some thoughts.

- God is as much of an asshole as I am.
- The throne is, indeed, empty.
- Time is fucked, and everything is reverse to what I thought it would be.
- I am really darn glad I stopped reading 418 after a few aethyrs. If I didn't have it fresh to open and confirm some of this stuff with Crowley's materials, I'd be terribly suspicious of what's going on. It gives me much-needed reassurance that I don't have a brain tumor driving me progressively more and more insane.
- My whole life has been put into perspective.
- The depression is like 90% gone. The last bits, as I understand it, will take a while due to habituation. I can actually feel and "see" now. Still not clearly, but much, much better than before.
- There is a strong underlying fear, that if I go further in this direction, it'll have a negative impact on those around me. I'll need to push through and just give in. We'll see how goes.

The need for reassurance is real. 418 helps, for sure, but it also doesn't address the question of "if I go further, what'll happen".

On the tesseract note, I was literally pushed to perform a hypercube working. I wasn't given any explanation, the Angel/ God just led me through the process, which I'll share once I get my head on straight enough to type those visions up.

TL;DR: specific temple space, which doesn't fit with known Enochian table layouts, two conceptual cubes which represent the current and desired state, and then the LBRP, setting one's perspective/ being as the Tau (Saturn) within the hypercube around which the 'mixing and stirring' occurs. Then off the Archangels go to spread the good word.

Note, this lacks the technical specifics, because they were 'done for me'. I'll try to get more over time. For now, gonna keep the visions up, and hopefully not end up in a psychotic break.

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Re: September Aethyrs
« Reply #34 on: September 25, 2019, 12:42:43 AM »
- There is a strong underlying fear, that if I go further in this direction, it'll have a negative impact on those around me. I'll need to push through and just give in. We'll see how goes.

Perhaps you should consider seeking an oracle? You seem to have found what you sought. The challenge now is grounding and assimilation.

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Re: September Aethyrs
« Reply #35 on: September 25, 2019, 01:09:09 AM »
Quick oracle:

Ace of Wands,
2 of Swords
Adjustment
6 of Cups
The Star

Seems pretty clear to me. But grounding, assimilation... once I'm done with it, all the way up.
I've set myself on the course, and it'd be a large mistake to stop now.

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Re: September Aethyrs
« Reply #36 on: September 25, 2019, 11:24:28 PM »
ZIP: https://z.lvxnox.com/z/magick/records/22-09-2019
ZID: https://z.lvxnox.com/z/magick/records/23-09-2019
DEO: https://z.lvxnox.com/z/magick/records/24-09-2019
MAZ: https://z.lvxnox.com/z/magick/records/25-09-2019

5 more to go.

Whew lad, what a trip.

It's only getting weirder. Grounding, I think, is going to be the more difficult part. The visions are getting easier and easier to get into, but they have a 'gravity' to them, a 'weight' and 'stickiness' that's somewhat difficult to properly word.


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Re: September Aethyrs
« Reply #37 on: September 30, 2019, 10:47:12 PM »
LIT: https://z.lvxnox.com/z/magick/records/26-09-2019
PAZ: https://z.lvxnox.com/z/magick/records/27-09-2019
ZOM: https://z.lvxnox.com/z/magick/records/28-09-2019
ARN: https://z.lvxnox.com/z/magick/records/29-09-2019
LIL: https://z.lvxnox.com/z/magick/records/30-09-2019

Overall: the middle part was quite good, but the last few were terribly underwhelming.

No big revelation, no great discovery, no new insights. Just "here's two pills, take one".

*sigh*